I’m so distractible today. It makes reading for class difficult.
If I hear ONE MORE CHILD IN A GERMAN CLASS tell me that I don’t know how to pronounce Angelika the German way, I will fucking scream. No. Sorry. Guess I don’t know how to pronounce my GERMAN FRIEND’S fucking name. I’m an MA student in German, and you’re an eighth grader. I guess you’re right and I’m wrong. My bad. Don’t fucking give me lip. Hint...
I am driving myself insane.
What Am I More Afraid Of?
Am I more afraid of missing German for Kids than I am that I won’t miss it? Or am I afraid that it will go on just fine without me? Because I know it will. I hope that it will. Of course. This is all contingent on me getting funding from Wisconsin. Is it weird that I hope I don’t sometimes? This is all so new for me. I just need some time to process. WHY IS THIS SO HARD?
Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know.– Ernest Hemingway (via artpixie) (via immeasurable)
On My Mind
I got into the German MA Program at UW - Madison. I am happy about this because I got into a department where no one knows me. While I’m sure that I was admitted to MSU based on academics, involvement in the department, and professionalism, people know me as a student and as a person, and I think it’s just easier to get in somewhere where people know you personally - if you are a good...
Today Was Weird
So today I got up to sub in Clarkston when I realized that it was snowing, and the roads wouldn’t have been plowed yet. I decided not to drive an hour and fifteen minutes in that awesome weather. I went back inside and cancelled the job only to find a new job for a half day in Waverly. Waverly is like 20 minutes away. So I took it. I was subbing for a special ed. resource room teacher. I...
I feel slightly ill and am trying to talk myself out of substitute teaching today. If I don’t teach, I will sit around on my ass and do nothing all day. I will make no money. If I sub, at least I will make a little money while keeping myself somewhat occupied. I know I’ll feel better later. I just wasn’t programmed to get up this early. Even when I was doing it on a regular...
immeasurable: It’s true what they say, you never really go away. Each day I fight the good fight and there you are, whispering in my ear when I take each bite. It must be exhausting to be you. You try so hard to get me to stop eating and when I don’t, you tear me down. I don’t want to stick my fingers down my throat, I don’t want bruised knees! I know you feed off my weaknesses and yes, right...
I Am Having An Incredibly Hard Time Staying...
I’ve been trying to keep busier these days, and my school work has helped with that. I also want to have some fun, so I decided to join an IM soccer team that my friends’ boyfriend put together. I suck at soccer - it’s true, but I had a good time, and I actually made a few “good” plays. No game-saving goals or dives, but I held my own, and it helped me burn some time...
Close Your Eyes and Leap
I really, really, really have so much in my life to be thankful for. There is so much to be happy about. It’s not worth concentrating on the not-so-positive things. It only brings me down. I am exactly where I have wanted to be for the last year. I am in grad school. I am a Master’s student at one of the best universities in the country - a Big 10 university: the school I dreamed of...
Going Against "The Mighty"
My soon-to-be (possibly) committee chair and I had a meeting today, and we discussed which classes I’m going to take and how I probably won’t get funding. Ever. That sucks, but I guess, for some crazy reason, I’m willing to pay for this graduate education. So if I stay at State, I will probably have to pay for grad school. Maybe for another year. So that goes against FDK’s...
Debate over cognitive, traditional mental health... →
Thursday is Magic
Thursday is the greatest day of the week. I truly believe that good things usually happen on Thursday. For example, I found out I got into grad school on a Thursday, and last night, I went to a cooking party. I made Andy’s recipe for chicken pesto pizza with black beans and orange peppers. It was for my friend Lily’s birthday, and she made tomato bacon sauce with pasta. There was...
Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to...– Thomas Edison (via jmsc) (via quote-book)
Could East Lansing ever become my hometown?
Last week at German for Kids, I face planted. I don’t want to do the same this week. I got most of my lesson planned last night, but after last week, my confidence is a little bit lower than it usually would be when it comes to German for Kids. Last semester I feel like I rocked it. I could plan the day of class during my planning hour at CHS. One weak lesson isn’t the end of the...
Professor: Was kann man zuchten?
This is Going to Be Unpopular...
Let me preface this by saying that I am NOT against giving to Haiti in it’s time of need. I think it’s great that there are all these giving campaigns and telethons, etc. What I do wonder, however, is where all of these telethons are to help our own citizens. There are people in the United States who do not have access to health care because they can’t afford it. There are...
Every time I decide I’m done with the runaround, you come back, and we start running again. I know you don’t really want to see me. If you wanted to, you’d have seen me by now. I need to let you go so I can move on and be productive in my life. Have some fun. Five years is long enough for this race. Why don’t I have the spine to stop running?
Adventures in Subbing
Today while subbing, I kept wanting to speak German to the kids because I’ve really only taught German. So I kept wanting to praise them in German and call them “Kinder” or “Klasse.” Lord. That would’ve confused the hell out of them. Maybe I just start thinking in German when I start teaching. That’s not really a bad thing, right? Even when I teach German...
…subbing in 5th grade today. Hopefully I can use my mad GfK skillz to deal with these kids.
I’m subbing tomorrow! Only for a half day though. But I’m okay with that. I have stuff to do tomorrow.
I Am Incredibly Exhausted Today.
I have woven a parachute out of everything broken.– William Stafford (via psychotherapy)
Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly.– Rose Franken (via kari-shma) I used this quote in the toast I gave at my cousin’s wedding. :)
I wonder how to get to the roof of Wells Hall.
This Made My Day
I am at Biggby, and they just started to play “Crystal Ball” by Keane. It is the best thing to happen to me all day - with the exception of not having a ticket despite forgetting to move my car by seven this morning. Yay! Kill it, Schwesterlein.
Kill It, Schwesterlein.
My sister starts chemo today. Not sure what time or anything. All I know is that it takes four hours. I’m feeling a bit guilty for “running away” back to East Lansing when we have the day off today, but I have a doctor’s appointment in 35 minutes, and I’m taking Erin to her interview. So I have stuff to do here, too. It’s not like I would’ve gone with them...
erinisbetterthanyou: I’ve drank one and a half bottles of wine (then champagne) this evening while celebrating the Golden Globes. Anyone else think it was full of upsets? Hopefully you didn’t pour any down the sink and want it later.
I Love E-mails
I just got an e-mail back from my German tutor. I e-mailed her to let her know that I am in grad school. I miss her. A lot. She was always so encouraging and so nice to me even though I was a self-conscious mess about my German skills/z. It was nice to hear from her.