I don’t know why this feeling has suddenly come to me, but I am relatively sure that I have changed my mind about having children. Let me be clear: I do not want nor am I in any way ready to have children right now, but I do now know for sure that I do want children someday. I honestly have no idea why this has come on right now.
I have also decided that I will start actively looking for a relationship. I finally feel like the time is right for this. I have my job, and I am going to start studying at the university here in Germany. I’m going to be here long term, and I’m ready to make a life for myself here; I want that life to include a serious relationship. I do not need a man in my life, but I’m at the point where I want a man in my life.
I’m not going to give up my dreams for anyone, and I don’t want to “settle down,” but I’m just at the point where I feel like it’s time.
It also doesn’t really help that German Mom said that she could already see me in Germany with husband and two (!!!) kids. Let’s not get ahead of ourselves here, C. One step at a time, and I’m really thinking just one child.
I never expected to have this feeling right now.